So what is it all for
if you say all the correct things
like a contestant
on the universe’s biggest quiz show
teeth white and blank
clothes neat but not freakishly so

is all this an attempt
to distract us from the cracks
in your surface
one more layer of paint
because it doesn’t matter
when the light shines on it
we can see all your broken places

if God picked you up
only to drop you
would you shatter like
a porcelain doll
so we could all see how
hollow you are inside

but sure
keep pushing your own button
and repeat the same phrases
with your tin-can computer chip voice
over and over again
don’t think we don’t notice

thursday 13.

this week: things that you’re working on right now (if you can come up with that many).

  1. trying to eat better. i’ve thought about my diet for the past few days and it’s been…not good. more veggies, fewer fried things out of a vending machine.
  2. i signed up to do the asian pacific heritage month display at work, so i’m printing photos and putting books on hold for that.
  3. also work-related: we’re doing a mini comic-con next month and we’re all running around like headless chickens trying to get that done.
  4. and the summer reading program draws nigh, so i am trying to get a couple of things together for that. (i proposed a pub trivia night and a spelling bee.)
  5. related to the comic-con, i’m knitting a slytherin hat as a possible giveaway. i’m planning on making hats for the other three houses, but i need to get going on that.
  6. trying to make my way through the marvel cinematic universe in preparation forĀ infinity war, which comes out at the end of the month.
  7. also reading four books at the moment; i am nothing if not ambitious with my reading.
  8. ^ two of those are being read in efforts to complete some reading goals: read more asian authors, read all the books from this year’s tournament of books, and finish all the series i’m in the middle of.
  9. started (for the umpteenth time) couch-to-5k.
  10. my apartment is a mess, as usual, so i need to spend some time cleaning tonight.
  11. my church is going through the book of 1 corinthians, and my small group is thinking about meeting to discuss a study guide together, so trying to figure that out
  12. looking into going to new york or california in the fall…
  13. i have the beginnings of a writing project in the back of my head; i just need to sit down and do it.

thursday 13.

this week: 13 seasonal/situational musical preferences. you’ll see what i mean in a second.

1. early spring (especially during Lent): Sufjan Stevens, the Noah and the Whale album The First Days of Spring, Johnny Flynn and the Sussex Wit, Nickel Creek
2. later spring: Punch Brothers (“Julep” is especially nice), Jon Foreman’s Spring and Summer EPs, the Frames, late Decemberists
3. summer (which in Houston lasts until mid-October): ’60s rock and pop and r&b, ’90s Christian ska, hip-hop and rap, salsa, early Decemberists, gospel (throwbacks to mission trips in high school), Switchfoot
4. later summer: all of the above, plus jazz and indie rock
5. mid-October until Thanksgiving: Andrew Peterson, Caedmon’s Call, Damien Rice, The Oh Hellos, early Coldplay, Ben Folds Five
6. Thanksgiving until Christmas: George Winston, The Oh Hellos’ Christmas EP, Andrew Peterson’s Behold the Lamb of God on repeat
7. post-Christmas: Lots of classical choral music (I don’t know why, but midwinter seems appropriate for it)
8. Sunday mornings: All Sons & Daughters, Sojourn Music, John Coltrane, Sandra McCracken, my church’s Spotify playlist of all the songs we’re rotating through
9. cleaning: Broadway cast recordings make everything better
10. presidential election season: Over the Rhine’s “If a Song Could Be President” ad infinitum
11. road trips: U2’s Joshua Tree, Paul Simon’s Graceland, Wilco, Nina Simone, Dave Brubeck, old mix CDs from college
12. in the morning: not music, but NPR’s Up First podcast, always
13. in the afternoon, while trying to get over the 3:00 slump: any and all music from the ’90s